Sometimes I think as women, as moms, and especially as homeschoolers, we only want to let others see the good stuff. We don't want others to see our flaws because they are a sign of weakness, and we certainly don't want to be seen as weak!
But I have to wonder who is it really helping when we project an image that everything is perfect?
Does it help the stressed out mama for me to say how wonderful things are going for me? Does it helped the tired mama when I talk about all the places we go and things we do? Does it help the homeschooling mama who is on the verge of giving up when I mention how good my day was and how cooperative my kids are being?
Nope. It doesn't. So in the interest of keeping it real and helping Homeschool Mamas everywhere realize they aren't alone...here are some honest and true facts about me:
I get tired of picking up after my kids all day ~ Cups, food wrappers, plates, hair accessories, electronics and their various supplies, pens, papers, and more. I find them all over the house! My kids cannot remember to pick up their things. I have failed them in this regard! Which leads me to the next one.
Sometimes I yell ~ Yes. I do. I lose my temper from time to time and I yell at my kids. I feel bad for it, and usually I apologize. But I do yell. I'm not perfect. And I'm betting you're not perfect either.
I sometimes neglect grading tests ~ At the beginning of the year I have really good intentions. I grade papers almost the minute they are finished. But just a few weeks into our school year and I might find ungraded tests or papers buried under paperwork on my desk days later. Which leads me to the next one.
I often fail to follow things through ~ I absolutely love planning and organizing. The office supply store is one of my favorite places to go. The efficiency of file folders, neat binders, magazine file boxes, and nice compact little storage boxes really make me happy. And I adore setting up my school room, and creating systems to keep myself organized. The problem is in the follow through. I've yet to find a system that I've used 100% all year long. (Praying that this might be the year? So far, so good!)
My kids don't always love learning ~ Yup. That's true. I know, I know, You've always heard that homeschooled kids were supposed to love learning. They are supposed to be self-motivated and eager to learn. But the truth is, mine are not. I have to nag and I have to scold and I have to give bad grades for incomplete work. It happens. And what's more, gasp!, at least one of my kids doesn't even like reading.
Some days I want to put them on a school bus and wave goodbye ~ I know you find this hard to believe. I've been homeschooling for 11+ years now and surely I must be past the doubts and the frustrations. But, I'm not. I'm always plagued with doubts and insecurities. And some days my kids are so stubborn that I'm convinced they'll never learn another thing from me.
My kids fight ~ If you watch the Duggar's on TLC, or read some of the popular homeschooling blogs, you might think that homeschoolers are all blessed with close, loving & kind brothers and sisters. But, my kids fight. They don't harm each other (that's not permitted at all), but they bicker. Sometimes they do it all day long until my nerves are worn so thin that I yell (I already admitted that I yell sometimes).
But, despite all this, guess what? I love what I do and Thanks be to my God, His mercies are new every single morning. That means I can go to bed at night knowing that I get a fresh start tomorrow. And thankfully, there are more good days than bad. So, homeschool mama, rest assured that you are most definitely not alone! None of us have perfect days, even if that's what we'd have you believe.